In an instance

In an instance, my cell phone went blank yesterday. As in won't-turn-on, can't-get-any-numbers, doneski. In more than an instance, I was the proud owner of a new Blackberry phone with no one to call.
In an instance today, I received a large cheeck in the mail I hadn't expected (maybe only one of the benefits of selling a house?).

Often times I fear things that can happen in an instance, things that can forever change a person's life. Many teachers at my school give a similar speech to mine before prom weekend: "don't do something for 30 seconds that could change your life forever". Sadly, many things fit into this category. However, in the last couple of weeks, I've been reminded how things in an instance can be positive, too. Like an unexpected check, phone call from a friend, smile from a baby, or e-mail from a student just to let me know she verbally committedto a college.

I have this topic on the brain because recently Joe and I made the toughest decision of our married life. Someone looking in at us, may think that some of our other decisions would have been tougher (getting married, buying a house, etc). However, I know that for me, this recent deicision was especially tough because I couldn't make it in an instance. I have friends that spend months, even years making decisions. Some of them even make spreadsheets and interview a whole gament of people to make sure they get it right. Me? I make a decision and go with it. But not this time. I had to use logic. I couldn't use my an instance, emotional gut response. I bought a house (two in fact) on that, why wouldn't this work for this? Even Joe commented that this was so hard because "I usually count on you, Stac, to tell us what to do." Now I feel confident we made the right decision (but time will only tell, right? Isn't that how it always goes?), but it really got me down. So these positive "in an instance" situations put a little faith back into my decision making skills. Put a little trust back into who I am and how I make decisions.